Juanita called it "The Crash."Her counselor labeled it "a major depressive episode." Others called it a nervous breakdown. On the spiritual front, it was a dark night of the soul.This experience landed Juanita, a busy pastor, mother, and community leader, in bed. When everything in her life finally came to a stop, she found that she had to learn to bewith herself and with Godall over again.If you are longing for a trustworthy companion through your dark days, this book is here for you. Each chapter includes life-giving spiritual practices to help you discover your own new ways of being.

Juanita Campbell Rasmus copastors the St. John's United Methodist Church in downtown Houston with her husband, Rudy. Together they cofounded Bread of Life, Inc. Pastor Juanita has also served as a member of the board of directors of Renovaré. Juanita most recently teamed up with Tina Knowles Lawson and Beyoncé to help forty thousand flood victims recover in the wake of Hurricane Harvey in Houston.

Foreword: Tina Knowles Lawson
1 The Stress of Living in a Do-Do-Do World
2 Who Am I?
INTERLUDE: AN ODE TO THE PRODIGAL BROTHER
3 The Hollow Bunny Rules
4 Perfectionism and the Good Girl
INTERLUDE: A FAMILY'S DILEMMAREFLECTIONS OF RYAN AND RUDY
5 Could I Just Hit Bottom Already?
6 Finding My Being
INTERLUDE: DOING . . . DOING . . . DONE!
7 Getting Free of My Notions
8 What's Anger Got to Do with It?
INTERLUDE: DEPRESSION'S WARNING SIGNS
9 Letting Go of Judgment
10 Claiming a New Identity
11 Have-to Versus Want-To
INTERLUDE: HIKING A MOUNTAIN
12 Skydiving
13 Silence: The Place of Being
14 It's the Thoughts That Count
15 Doing . . . Doing . . . Undone
16 It's All Grace
Acknowledgments
Notes